I’m a
feminist. And some may think it’s extremely, but when it comes down to it,
gender equality isn’t such a crazy notion after all.
I think
sometimes within our faith, particularly as women, we can mistake silence for
peace—being submissive in order to be non-confrontational. I have been a victim
of this mentality from time to time and thought that if I didn’t agree with
everything that was said on Sunday then it was better to be quietly agreeable
in my seat (or even worse, that something was wrong with me).
About two
years ago, I came to the conclusion that a black &white, dogmatic approach
to my religion would consume me. There were too many unanswered questions about
my religion, its origins and temple practices that couldn’t be explained away
as I sat there silently in a pew each Sunday. I was faithful, yet unsatisfied.
I served, yet incomplete. After the birth of our daughter I was forever changed.
I wanted something better for her—something I didn’t have—gender equality.
I decided to
try something new. I spoke. I questioned. I engaged. I researched. I
challenged. I prayed. I studied. The more I did the more I came to realize I
was a woman whom God had given a voice, talents, and intelligence. God wanted
me to speak and ask questions. God also gave me the gift of personal
revelation, divine inspiration to guide me in my search for truth. Questions
are the building blocks of a greater testimony, and the more questions I asked
the more knowledge I attained.
Matthew 7:7
says, “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek and y shall find; knock, and it
shall be opened unto you”
So I
knocked.
Have all my
questions been answer? No. Am I satisfied with all the practices, policies, and
doctrines of my religion? No. Do I feel completely satisfied with my role
dictated by my gender as a woman? No.
But I am
hopeful. I am progressing. And though my religion moves at a glacial pace
toward gender equality, I am taking each day in faith believing that even at
times when my religion fails me, God will not fail me.
As a fellow
woman of the LDS faith I invite you to use your voice. Engage regularly in
dialog, research, pray and meditation about your questions and ideas. Confront
them with strength and transparency even though it may leave you vulnerable.
Never be afraid to ask “WHY?” I know that your voice is equally important. Your
opinions are warranted. Your needs should be addressed. Your ideas not only
matter, THEY ARE ESSENTIAL!
This Church is founded, built and upheld upon the backs of strong, faithful, amazing women! I am one of them and so are you.
This Church is founded, built and upheld upon the backs of strong, faithful, amazing women! I am one of them and so are you.